Good morning everyone.
Although in general I feel good, I’m still quite emotional. Why? Because the day when I’m traveling is getting closer and closer. I still can’t believe it. I can’t believe that I won’t be coming back. That I’ll be without my mum. That I’ll be without many loved ones. That I’ll be completely alone. Well, I’ll be with dad, but it will still be very hard.
Last night mummy told me that when I’m leaving for the airport, she won’t come with me because she doesn’t want to see me leave. She can’t take it. To be honest, I don’t know whether I want her to come or not, because I still have to say goodbye at home and it will be almost the same. I don’t know how I’ll do it. How will I hug mummy for the last time until winter holiday? How will I kiss my sister? How will I annoy my dogs and cat? It’s hard to do it and even hard to imagine it. I don’t know..
I’ve also just seen the ticket. I didn’t know it’s my ticket, so I wanted to look at it. But when I realised, I put it aside and I reared up. God, give me strength. God, help me.