I want to be tanned. I want to have either curly hair or straight hair. I want to be taller. To some extent I want to be a bit thinner. I want to be like this. I want to be like that. I want to do this. I want to do that.
I want all to be how I’m not. I want all the things I don’t have.
For example, okay, I have rather light skin. Not too light, I do have some colour, but I’m not dark either. I personally do everything (not counting the extremes of course) to be dark(er). I tan. I use different things. Oh God. Only I know what I go through. I mean, that’s what everyone back home (Romania) likes to do and I bet most people in Europe or America does too. But guess what? When I came to Kuwait I had one of the biggest shocks ever. All the shops were full of… WHITENING creams. Yes, you read well. How we have tanning lotions, oils or creams, they have the same things, but for becoming whiter.
I mean, why can’t you take my colour and I have yours? I’d be so happy!
Another example may be the fact that my hair is weird, somewhere in between straight and curly, but it’s not wavy. Can’t explain it. I have many friends with curly hair. They want straight hair, while I would do anything to have amazing, natural curls. Heaven on Earth.
It happens all the time. I know this. It’s a fact. But I just can’t stop wondering why. Why are we so complicated, yet so simple. Or so simple, yet so complicated. Why can’t be thankful with what we have?
Don’t get me wrong. I am thankful, but there’s always that something and since the weather got well, I keep tanning. I could literally lay down under the sun the whole day. And if I had a good book, or good music and a cold drink (whether is beer, my favourite or just water or Cola) it would be even better.
Why do we want the opposite of what we have? Is it normal?